PhilosEros

7 REASONS WHY WE ARE SUPPORTING NOYNOY
By: A Family from Baguio City, Philippines

1.We see the handiwork of God in his candidacy --Ninoy died for the country and his widow became president after people power. After battling cancer, Cory went home to the Lord which ushered in an unprecedented showing of support and love for a former president. This showing of support miraculously bankrolled into a people’s call for Noynoy to run for president even if he had no plans of doing so. These events could only be orchestrated by a sovereign God who has compassion over nations shackled by the blight and darkness of arrogant and shameless corruption.


2.He inspires hope – Prior to Noynoy’s candidacy, we were resigned to our fate of just choosing the utopian lesser evil among traditional,same old,eager beaver presidentiables. None of them inspires hope. But all that changed when Noynoy responded to that God-given calling in his life to serve the Filipino people whom his father died for . Tears of hope from the hearts and eyes of ordinary Filipinos flowed when he declared his candidacy . Upon learning of Noynoy’s candidacy, a Bureau of Customs employee said, “Salamat.Pwede na ulit mangarap.”


3.He is honest – Ballsy Aquino Cruz, Noynoy’s sister declared on national media that she is willing to be shot if anybody could present evidence that her brother is a thief. This sincerity is unparalleled even among the closest family and relatives of the other presidentiables. None of the other presidentiables’ sisters or brothers would like to end up dead. Noynoy was reared in an environment of honesty as exemplified by the lives of his parents.Indeed, an apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.


4.He has strength of character -- We don’t need a president who will hang a shingle in Malacanang that reads, “ Business as Usual”. He is the only candidate that we believe when he says he will clean house because he is clean.


5.He is humble and not in love with power – Everything about him is not contrived. Ordinary people like us could see through spin doctor- managed acting among public officials and candidates. But we see in Noynoy the sincere simplicity of a simple man, who although pedigreed, is not self-centered,power and recognition hungry. He doesn’t mind having thinning hair,simple clothes and a down-to-earth manner of speaking. More so, his humble spirit was manifested when he sought God’s direction first before plunging in the presidential race.
We could see that his reluctance to seek the presidency is genuine. We believe that power should be given to those who have strength of character because they are not obsessed nor in love with it.And yes, Mr.Gary Olivar, Malacanang spokesman, Noynoy is his own man because true manhood could only come from a humble spirit.


6.He alone could mobilize people power – No other presidentiable could ask the Filipino people to bankroll his campaign and credibly call for volunteers.In this country where the norm is patronage politics and presidentiables spend billions just to win an election,Noynoy is the only presidential candidate as of press time who is being swamped by a snowballing groundswell volunteer support from unknown, ordinary Filipinos from Luzon to Vizayas without any budget. Noynoy is the anti-thesis of patronage politics because he could ask for volunteers to spend time and resources to campaign for him.


7.He is the good in this fight between good and evil – No other opposition candidate had earned the most vicious attacks from Malacanang and the other political parties who are fielding candidates in the presidential race than Noynoy.
In fact, some parties are already demolishing the people’s perception and argument that the 2010 presidential race is a fight against good and evil. Noynoy’s detractors would like to brush aside the morality of the elections because morality in government leadership is not a campaign strategy that could propel their traditional, same old, eager beaver presidential candidates.
It is true what Earl Spencer said ,that true goodness is threatening to those who are on the other side of the moral spectrum. In this fight versus good and evil, Noynoy credibly represents the good.

Sorry if we haven't made a write up for too long. We were too busy kasi in these past few weeks.

It was our 5th monthsary last August 15, 2009. Things are getting better this time. I'm very happy that we've managed to handle our relationship properly for this long. Hope it grows better as time passes us by. In fact, malapit na kami mag live in. Ok na kasi lahat. Kulang nalang, yung place na malapit sa aming 2 (work), hopefully makahanap kami somewhere in Pasig or Cubao, and pasok sa budget namin. Natutuwa nga ako kay Phi, dahil nagawa na nya budget namin. Including our buffer, retirement, and savings. Very detailed nung prinesent nya sa akin and it was approved. Hehe. I really love this guy.

I just recently watched this Korean movie - "A Moment to Remember". Hindi ako iyakin na tao pero di ko nakayanan an movie na toh. This movie will make you apreciate your loved ones more. Just click on the title of this blog for its link. Hope you like it too.

- Eros

this is Philos

I feel like my soul is being broken to a thousand pieces and my spirit is being shredded in a shredder. And hirap at ang bigat mahalin ni Eros. Mahal na mahal ko sya... pero I wonder and keep on asking myself if he really loves me (love, in its profound meaning) at all. Kasi 75% of what he is showing, saying and doind to me are really painful. When in fact I give him ALL my patience, ALL my effort, ALL my HEALTH, ALL my understanding. LAHAT NA!

im getting tired and stressed. I hope he will change soon. I dont want for the time to come when I am already numb and cold of all of his hurtful personality.

We are the eternal cycle
of sun and moon in a whirlwind
of ice cream and wine
eaten by gods of the
cherry blossom tree.

You are the YIN of my Yang,
the silent vengeful spirit
in the dark dungeons of my Id;
whose power unleashes the
breaking of "we"

I am the YANG of your yin,
the gentle and wise breeze
that gives life to your shallow
heart; whose magic is the rope
that ties the formation of "us"

And on our Sabbath nights
we perpetually convene in the
swamp land of papers and ink,
along Dona Aurora's cat walk of
queens making scenes,
there we dance in the divine
unfolding of scrolls written
in moon and fire.

Yes we become ONE in our
embrace, in the effervescent
and throbbing mixture of
sugar and red pepper.

We are one, cotton and flame;
where wisdom of a thousand
prophets and golden sutras
are written in the flaming liver and lungs
and cotton skin of our soul.

Finally, in that moment of white
clouds and seraph's song
of buddha moans and
lotus birth, our eyes
pierce each other in the
silence of bodily embrace
and gentle change
of "yin" and "yang"
into "Tao"
the alteration of
"I" and "you"
into the oness of
“Philos”

I so love this song...

This has nothing to do with me Philos and my partner Eros. I just want to post my discourse. Though I must admit nag-aaway kami ni Eros while I was composing my ideas regarding this post.

HOUSE OF EVIL

* Last night June 2, was flipping through the channels when I saw the live telecast of the house session for the passing of Resolution 1109, a resolution to call on congress to convene as a constituent assembly to amend the Philippine constitution. It was an appalling event to watch. Anywhere here is my discourse regarding the event.

When you think that circumstances and politicians are already in their worst that they are, the summit of their evil, namely those in the house of representatives and also of the executive branch has already went beyond the heights beyond Mt Apo in pushing and rushing for a resolution to amend the 1987 Constitution. It is already a given that 98% of our local and national government officials and “public servants” are corrupt and downright foul specially during this time when the executive is led by someone who wish to go beyond the infamous accomplishments of Ferdinand Marcos, and mind you this current President is the second longest President next to the Marcos; It’s a sure thing that the entire bureaucracy of the Philippines is rigged in graft and corruption and that 75% of the Filipino people allows itself to be raped of the nation’s coffers on a regular basis. The legal processes in the ombudsman to prosecute the red handed devils and the impeachment cases in the House of Representatives have been manipulated and stage-managed and it was simply tolerated by the people with a deafening silence but not without condemnation. But to tinker with the very heart of Philippine Law, which is the Constitution, to play stupid the people by mere technicalities of the procedural law and play the rule of numbers to the outmost disgusting and immoral practice of democracy is downright and utterly… well I could not think of what proper word to use to describe such the harassment, the rape, the sacrilegious act towards the Filipino people and the spirit that embodies them, which is the Constitution.

RESOLUTION 1109:

Resolution 1109 was a house of representatives’ resolution to call on Congress to convene as a constituent assembly to amend the 1987 constitution. It was originally proposed or sponsored by Congressman Villafuerte for the mere intention of having justiciable issue of whether the senate and the House of Representatives should vote separately as a constituent assembly or as a single whole in amending the constitution for future guidance if and when in the future the constitution is to be amended. However the original architect of the resolution withdraw its support on the resolution as the house leadership started to mishandle the proposal and as well as to put the proposal or resolution in a bad course. The resolution that was finally passed and went through the committee of Constitutional amendments was a broad and questionable resolution. It only called for Congress to convene as a constituent assembly to amend the constitution, meaning that by context the constitution is to be amended upon convention of the assembly, however the resolution did not specify the specifics of what parts of the constitution is going to be amended or if the entire constitution is to be replaced at all. The good part, which is not a good part at all, is that there was a pledge and a covenant by the signatories of the resolution that if and when the process of Charter Change pushes through the terms of office of the President down to the legislative branch will not be extended and the 12 senators who has a term of office until 2013 would be allowed to finish their term. The reason that it is not a good thing is because if and when congress convenes as a constituent assembly, they are no longer bound by the terms of a mere house resolution since the powers and boundaries of the house by technical interpretation, cannot over run the powers, functions and boundaries of a constituent assembly. So the pledge is nothing more than letters written in water. Unfortunately, the night of June 2, the broad and much generalized resolution was passed in a railroading manner by the house leadership and its majority. The resolution was pushed and rushed as Congress is about to formally be on break and would return in July (if I am not mistaken). This is where one of the areas of doubt is founded upon, “what’s with the rush?” especially in a very delicate matter such as amending the constitution.

I am not familiar with procedures on legislative functions but as to what I understood in watching the dramatic session, a congressional resolution should be a bicameral resolution, meaning that house resolution 1109 should have an equivalent resolution in the senate especially when the issue is as important as changing portions or all of the 1987 constitution. Then each of the resolution should undergo a committee hearing or deliberation before it goes to the plenary hall for formal debate and voting. I’m not sure of the procedure mentioned above; it’s merely a derivation of what I witnessed and my personal knowledge on how laws are made in congress. But from another angle that I came to understand that it is possible that the resolution of the house for constitutional amendment can be done singly by the house of representatives, but again it has to be proposed, endorsed, deliberated in the appropriate committee and then debated in the plenary hall, voted upon then the approved resolution is transmitted to the senate. However the sad thing about it both procedures was totally railroaded by the ruling majority, which by common public sense is under the control of President GMA.

IN THE PLENARY HALL

Resolution 1109 was obviously rushed in legislative speeds that are historical in nature given the fact that it is a very critical and sensitive resolution as it will pave a way for congress to change portion or all of the constitution. The constitution is the heart and foundation of all the laws, bureaucratic functions, and policies of the state, and even foreign relations of any given civilized post-modern nation. So a resolution to call upon congress to convene as a body to change the constitution cannot be deliberated in the plenary in just mere 4 hours. It could not even be deliberated for 1 day unless the resolution itself has undergone a thorough scrutiny in the committee level. The problem is, as the opposition congressmen and women pointed out in their objections during the railroading event by cutting short the interpellation was that the resolution did not undergo committee deliberation thoroughly so as to bring it up to the plenary well polished. The minority, which is the opposition, during the final committee deliberation, was promised and pledged by the house leadership especially by Speaker Nograles that instead of wasting time in the committee level, all questions and debates in the committee level can all be addressed in a one gunshot thing during the interpellation in the plenary proceedings.And so the minority agreed to such an offer. I think there were 11 or 8 opposition congressmen and women were in line to question the proponent of the resolution. It was also at that portion that I came to watch and get glued to the live telecast by ABS-CBN ANC Channel. However, in the middle of the debate, the previously infamous opposition Rep, Dilangalen of Maguindanao came to the stand and motioned to close the interpellation, to the surprise of the opposition or house minority. It was at that time that the resolution was obviously being derailed and shortcut by the house leadership and house majority. One noticeable event was that the plenary hall obviously had few congressmen and women during the interpellation but when the interpellation was suddenly cut short and the voting to pass the resolution was nearing suddenly the entire plenary hall was jammed packed. The opposition was given their time to explain each of their objection to the closing of the interpellation and also their objection towards the passing of the resolution. Representatives or congressmen and women with the likes of Satur Ocampo, Darlene Antonino Custodio, Liza Masa and the likes pointed out in their objections that the house leadership promised them time to question the resolution in the plenary since it was not done in the committee level. They further and strongly pointed that the resolution was not properly “cooked”, it is being pushed and rushed irrationally, house procedural rules was not followed properly and was even violated, and that the resolution in itself was vague and has to be further deliberated.

I personally liked the objection speech of the former speaker Joe De Venecia as he pointed out and made clear that resolution 1109 was nothing more than a vehicle for hidden agendas and political maneuvering by the administration and its allies in the House of Representatives. Joe De Venecia was a strong advocate and promoter of Charter Change but as he pointed out unlike his ways the current resolution was improperly done. He pointed out that previously he had cha-cha resolutions properly undergo its process and he even went to campaign in so many parts of the country for cha-cha to be understood and accepted by the people. Also his cha-cha was very specific on which portions were to be changed with the proper terms and conditions of amending it. Unlike of course the current one that was passed, it did not reflect a specific amendment on the constitution. He even suggested to simply apply the Nograles proposal, which specifies that the economic portions of the constitution is the part that is to be changed. He further said that even if the Nograles proposal was merely a ploy for something else at least it was with specifics and it was presenting something unlike the resolution 1109 which did not mention a single thing as to what specifics was to be changed; notwithstanding the entire process on how the resolution came about the timeliness of the resolution and how it was passed is totally questionable.

THE OBVIOUS POINTS OF DERAILMENT, RUSH AND HIDDEN AGENDA

·The resolution was not properly polished. It is vague. Upon its passing it will allow congress to amend whatever and whichever it likes in the constitution.

·The resolution’s pledge on non-term extension on national officials is not binding in a constituent assembly.

·Interpellation of the resolution was not given proper time. The minority was not able to finish its discourse, ask its questions and express their views regarding the resolution properly. The rights of the minority in the house were stepped over. The minority knows that they will lose in the voting, but they are merely asking time and also to exercise their right to interpolate. The house leadership promised and pledged that such time shall be appropriated but it was not honored.

·The resolution was rushed and pushed to be passed days before congress goes on break.

·In comparison to the CARP extension resolution which was properly done and processed, resolution 1109 over ridden the passing of the CARP resolution even when in comparison and in importance, amending the constitution should take more time than the time it took for the CARP to be deliberated.

·If CARP Extension is passed and economic provisions in the constitution is to changed to allow foreigners to own land and property in the country is ratified, then there will be conflict in the provisions of the CARP and the law allowing foreigners to own land.

·The house cannot go and pass Chacha resolution without the senate, therefore the passing of resolution 1109 the night of June 2, was considered futile and fruitless since senate will not, in any way, go with the wagon in changing the constitution. But there lies the suspicion, because given the fact that the house leadership knows very well that senate will not support the chacha resolution and that the House of Representatives cannot amend the constitution without involving the senate then why is there such an eagerness and energy to push for the resolution at all? It seems as if they are cooking something deadly in their witch’s pot.

MY FEELINGS AND CONCLUSIONS

If one was able to watch the plenary session regarding resolution 1109, it was really unlike any other major events that one would have watched, except of course the impeachment of Joseph Estrada. Compared to the GMA impeachment derailments and legislative investigation hullabaloos of the hello Garci and fertilizer scam, the session was also epic in itself as I saw the complete disregard of the moral practice of democracy in the most sensitive and paramount issue of changing the constitution, the primary law of the land. I saw how insensitive and how heartless the ruling majority are. Before, you can hear me saying that congressmen are people with black hearts and bones, But upon seeing the proceedings of 1109, they are totally heartless beings. They are mere puppets of the one puppeteer who sits supreme in the Palace overlooking the Pasig River. It really made me question a lot of things regarding the resolution. Why is it being passed during this time? Why is it being rushed in a manner that the resolution was not properly processed and procedural rules were not followed? I saw that pledges among colleagues were not honored. I saw a former opposition strong man was now among the allies of the majority and was even the one who paved the way to cut the proceedings short. I question the timeliness of the resolution. I wonder why it is being pushed when they are aware that it shall not prosper or even if it pushes through, between now and 2010 there is not enough time to accomplish a complete and well done charter change.

I don’t know if I am to be ashamed being a Filipino for having such a government made of such men and women. I know what they are doing has nothing to do with being a Filipino, but what happened the night of June 2, 2009 and since such people are the leaders of the land and they represent the Filipino people, then somehow I cannot avoid feeling ashamed of my nationality. I was totally appalled and flabbergasted as each moment unfolded before me in the live telecast of the plenary session and how resolution 1109 was successfully passed by simply a shouting of “YES” and “NO” of the legislative body. I felt it was a sacrilege and a blasphemy against the Filipino people as to how they do things in the plenary hall. The plenary hall was and is the shrine of the people’s supreme power to make laws for themselves through the duly elected senators and district/party representatives. Now it makes me wonder if there’s any good candidate I can vote in 2010 from the lowest local position up to the presidential position. Well one thing’s for sure I won’t vote for any Lakas-Kampi politician and I call upon everyone to do the same. Really, Philippine politics and the Philippine government controlled by all sorts of scoundrels, has crossed over to the point of total debauchery, moral decadence (if it even has any morality at all) and profligacy. I hope 2010 will really be a new and hopeful start of the this ill-governed nation.

Eros here. Grabe, matagal na pala ako di nagsusulat. Mejo busy sa work e. Araw araw ba namang 10-12 hours magkakasunod trabaho ko. Tapos malayong malayo pa workplace ko sa haus. Around 2 hrs ang commute ko. 2nd monthsary nga pala namin ni Phi nung May 15, 2009. Di man lang namin napansin till naghiwalay kami galing date namin when he texted. Hectic na magstos ang weekend namin last week grabe. From my 10-hr work, we went to stay for the morning at his place somwhere on Antipolo - sa rural area tlaga. Grabe. Naawa ako sa kanya kasi dun ko lang narealize gaano ka layo ang byahe. Sabi ko nga pagdating namin duon e matulog lang kami kasi sobrang pagod kaming 2. Pero makulit si Phi- so we had our afternoon delight. It was one of the hot delights na di ko makakalimutan kasi bukod sa hot and sweaty kami e literal na mainit talaga. Nung early evening from Antipolo eh lumuwas naman kami to Trinoma to meet up with my barkada's because I wanted to plan my birthday party with them and introduce my Phi to them since its the best time - free kami lahat. Ok naman ending. Napagastos pa ko ng konti ng sang round ng beer at ang couple pa naming friends kasi sa cheers ng -"wagas na pag-ibig" na nagresulta sa dagdag pang pulutan. Tapos, nun mejo lasing na kami at pumunta na kami ni Phi sa weekend rest hotel namen to literal at totoong rest na. Pag gising namin 12 noon kinabukasan, niyaya ko naman si Phi na maglibot sa buong Antipolo para mag-occular ng mga resort na pwedeng pagstayan namin for my bday. Nag ikot kami sa kasagsagan ng init ng araw, kaya 2 lang ang napuntahan namin na its-a-tie lang ang labanan. Ang Loreland and Bosay. Di ko pa alam where pero ok lang dahil opt ko rin sa house naman if ever di makakaya sa lugar na yun. Pagdating namin sa bayan ng antipolo ni phi ay may nakita kaming spa. Nag aya agad si phi magpahilot kasi yun talaga ang gingawa nya before. First time ko sa ganung spa (clean type) and sobrang revitalized and relieved naman ako sa experience. Matapos nun, ayaw pa namin maghiwalay, pero napansin nyo naman, gano ka stressful yung 2 araw na yun. Pero ok lang. Infact I enjoyed every moment of it. Narealize kong kailangan na naming mag live in ni Phi somewhere in Pasig para malapit sa workplace namin. Hay. Stress talaga. Pero buti nalang, andyan palagi si Phi. I really love my Phi.

Actually wala ako maisip na ipost talaga na specific

Masaya naman kami ni Eros ngayon. Meron pa rin konting tampuhan at awayan pero I think medyo nagiging stable na kami ngayon. Para din matapos na lahat ng issue I finally agreed to change sims. Ako pa mismo nagsira ng 3 year old kong sim at yung sim ni Eros.

Bumili na rin kami ng ring namin. yung ring ko ay may engraving ng name nya and vice versa. Super tagal namin namili. hay. Pero okay naman na. We are both happy with the look of it. Yung picture above is the closest resemblance ng ring namin na nahanap ko sa net

As they say nasa honeymoon stage pa kami kaya naman pasweet pa kami sa isat isa. I don't mind kissing him infront of everyone sa office whenever darating sya. Mas una kasi shift ko kesa sa kanya. Hindi ako nahihiyang yakapin at akbayan sya sa office or even outside ng office.

Binalik na sila sa dati nilang pwesto. Hindi na kami magkatalikuran ni Eros. Hay. Namimiss ko tuloy sya. Minsan when I am not doing anything I would just surprice him with a kiss sa chick. Hehehe


I forgot to mention. I got pissed off the other day kasi yung ex nya nagtratrabaho din sa company ay bigla na lang dumaan sa station nya (that time hindi pa nililipat ang unit ni Eros kaya magkatalikuran kami) at binigyan sya ng pesto pasta in a very specific container. Para bang sadyang pinaghandaan yung pasta at talagang intended para kay Eros. AT hindi lang yun ang kinainis ko, ng second time na dumaan si LASON going out of the floor unit, bigla nya na lang hinawakan sa sa b atok si Eros na may halong pisil. Do you get the picture. NAKAKAINIT TALAGA NG ULO. I mean I trust Eros na talagang wala na syang feelings dun sa ex nya and talaga naman pinakita nya sa akin na iniiwasan nya na so hindi ako nagagalit dahil nagseselos ako. Nagagalit ako kasi para bang walang delikadesa at manners yung ex nya. Sa harapan ko magbibigay sya ng food at may kasama pang pisil sa batok ng ASAWA KO! The nerve! I mean, its okay kung magkaibigan na lang sila and they sometimes would talk sa office or magbibigay ng food tong si LASON, pero sana naman wag sa harapan ko. Wag pag nandun ako. Kasi nakakabastos and nakakasuka man sabihin "NAKAKALALAKI" sya! I trust my Eros. Super trusted ko sya. Pero isang malaking EPAL yung ex nya, palibahasa kung san san lang naman pala nag-aral yun. Ni hindi pa pala nakakatapos. I hope talaga last na yung insident na yun. Kasi tinext na namin sya na tumigil na talaga. And that LASON said that he will really stop.


Lately ako naman ang napapranoid at naiinsecure. I dont know whats wrong with me pero sobrang natatakot ako sa future na baka biglang magsawa sa akin si Eros at may dumating na someone better at ipagpalit nya ako dun. Hindi naman kasi ako overwhelmingly gwapo and family ko ay umaasa din sa akin so almost half of my finances ay napupunta din sa family ko. So I feel as if wala akong mabigay o maooffer kay EROS na kung saan talagang never nya maiisip na iwan ako. I feel as if any time pwede nya ako itapon na lang since I have nothing exceptional to give. Minsan naiiyak ako in bed for getting hurt of something that has not yet happened. Ewan ko ba. I will try not to think about it anymore. and Just think of my good qualities na hindi makikita ni EROS sa iba, at alam ko na isa sa mga yun na talagang mahirap makita ay UNWAVERING FIDELITY and EMOTIONAL/INTELLECTUAL MATURITY. Such things are very rare sa same-sex relationships. Super rare. I hope that is my edge above others na super gwapo, sexy at mayaman.



I cant wait sa plano namin ni Eros na magrent ng apartment. Ang hirap kasi at ang gastos ng situation namin. Rizal ako, sya Marikina, tapos pag weekend, we have to spend so much to spend quality time together and stay overnight in some hotel or motel. By June pa kami mag-aapartment. excited na ako. The other week nga, nagtatalo na kami sa itsura ng sala at kwarto. Gusto ko kasi Asian yung look ng sala, with reds, darkwood and buddhas. Si Eros naman, gusto nya Vivtorian. Okay lang din yun sa akin hindi ko lang magets yung color combination nyang Blue and brown. hindi ko mapicture sa utak ko. So I said, to settle everything, Zen black and white na lang ang sala at sa kwarto na lang sya mag victorian. at ang kusina ang gagawin kong hardcore asian look.

I hope everything will really turn out well for the two of us in all areas, families namin, work, relationship namin and friends.

LOVE YOU EROS!

The article below was taken from a someone else's blog. I just found the article very nice, informative and inspirational that I wanted to post it in our blog. I am not stealing intellectually. I stated clearly this article is not my article.

LIFE AND LOVE EXPLAINED

Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with...

In life, initially, you will meet the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves YOU most. When you experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.

The one you love most doesn't love you.
The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

Which person are you in other people's life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore.
When he loves you, he cant pretend that he doesn't.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.

When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.

If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.

If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him, and if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

LOVE IS NOT POSSESSIVE.

If you like the moon, you cant just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you.

In other words, when you love a person, you may use another method of possessing the person.

Let him become a permanent memory in your life.

If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points, and the bad. You can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can't change to become what you like him to be, you don't love him anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him.

You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad, you will wish to have this person to be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.

In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.

Being away form each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.

Real love will never become hate. When two people are in love, they love to ask each other to swear, to make promises... Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover.

These swear and promises are useless:

"Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!"

We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry. Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises; don't make promises that you cannot keep. Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching?

In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying doesn't believe; the one listening also doesn't believe.

"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have..."


Taken from:
http://carlorock.multiply.com/journal?&page_start=20

PHI,

Wala lang, I just wanna thank you for the support that you have given to me. I love you very much... You're the only one who can only fill my heart with energy and life, wala ng iba, akaya sayo lang ako focused always. I pray and thank God every day and night for giving you back to me, at the most suitable time for us to be in a monogamous, romantic, and very stable relationship. I also wanna tell you that your always in my heart & mind. I care for you so much and would also cherish the love that your giving to me. I always believe and will help in making our love and commitment last for eternity. Love you so much phi! Muah!

Lovingly yours,
EROS

I guess it is just normal to have frequent fights, issues and problems when it is just your first month to be in a serious relationship, specially when both of you are so in-love with each other.

But its a bit getting into me sometimes, specially when the issues and fights are from pathetic and non-existent factors and when such issues are nothing more than just unfounded speculations, paranoia and baseless JEALOUSY.

Eros is up with torch and forks again because if something that I am not sure of.

First I was just at home the entire Sunday and I even texted him around 5:07PM that I will be taking a nap, to which I woke up 9:00PM. When I woke up I saw so many text messages and several miss calls from him asking where I was and why I was not texting. It irritated me a little as it was obvious that he did not read the entirety of my last text message, or that he read it but he just took it for granted and just had paranoid ideas simply because I did not text for some time. I explained that to him and he accepted.

However before I went to bed at around 11:00PM he told me to "behave" the nth time. He has been telling me "to behave" like endlessly. I just could not handle it anymore with his "sirang plaka" repetition of "behave" so I just gave him a mild reprimand. I told him just to stop telling me again and again to behave because I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING TO COMPROMISE OR ENDANGER OUR RELATIONSHIP. He said sorry and I went to sleep. But story does not end there.

Waking up this morning I saw several text messages from him, first, accusing me of flirting with someone. I don't know what he saw or where he got the idea that my friend from cavite, Albert and my friend and personal physical therapist is the just the same person and that Eros has the impression that I was telling him lies and made-up stories about Albert and Gary and that the two people are just one person. I am really confused as to what hullabaloo of an idea he got that from. Then he has an issue of me cleaning up my friendster account. Cause I deleted all my sent items but I did not emptied my inbox. We'll I simply cleaned the sent items because I have no use for them and just to keep my mail efficiently clean. My inbox was left in tacked because I have several friends there who I haven't added yet and has no way of contacting unless otherwise I keep their previous messages in my friendster. Since he checked my friendster account, he thought that I went out yesterday and went online albeit thinking that I lied to him by saying I was sleeping when I actually went out, which of course is not true because I WAS REALLY SLEEPING FROM 5:07PM to 9:00PM and my mom and other people at home can attest to that.

IT really mind-boggles me as to where he got the idea that Albert and Gary are the same person and why all of a sudden he is raging mad again about some things that are totally untrue and unfounded.

For crying out loud, He has access to my friendster account and to my g4m account. He was even the one who created a new account for me with the new g4m site. we are working in the same company, in the same floor. We eat lunch together. Every weekend we are together often staying in hotel and being with each other for about 20 hours. I mean, what else does he want to prove that I am FAITHFUL AND SINCERE. He has his eyes on me Almost 24/7. Even when I was sick, as in terribly sick, I had to force myself to go to work just to keep my employment in his company so that we can be together at the same work place. I could have just given up the company and just went job hunting elsewhere. It wouldn't be a problem for me find another company. My mom even told me that its not much of a problem if I don't get in to that company and my health is more important. I was really sick and burning with fever just to go to my training and not be terminated.

He likes to focus more on his unfounded speculations and paranoia instead of the good things that our relationship provide.

What I feel right now is that he has a psychological problem of being a FAULT FINDER. He is wasting his energy and attention on THINGS THAT DOES NOT EXIST AND ON THINGS THAT I AM NOT DOING! WHAT THE F@3kI*$ ELSE DOES HE WANT FROM ME.

I love him so much and I am faithful and sincere. But I dont understand why he keeps on accusing things that has no basis.

He is login right now. just messaged me. My YM status was invisible. I forgot to change it byut prior to that I texted him that I will go online. And now he is making an ISSUE OF IT!

NASASAKAL NA AKO.

What else does he want? Tell me friends, my kulang pa ba sa mga ginawa ko to assure him that he is secure with me?

I need both of us needs some fresh air. I think he needs to reflect on his actions and thoughts. I am not suggesting a cool-off. It doesn't mean that we will give space with each other eh ibig sabihin nun eh COOL-OFF OR HIWALAYAN NA. BASTA I need a time off from him and I think he needs a time off from me.

MY HEART IS CRYING FROM WITHIN. I AM BOTH ANGRY AND HURTINGLY SAD!

Eros here,

Phi

phi, bagay sa friendster mo...

Post from Philos

As of the moment, Eros is having one of his paranoia attacks. And this time he is fretting about my friendster account and the fact that I have a shout out that refers to one of my exs which says

"Justice has been served... May all the culprits get the proper treatment that they deserve."

It was posted 2 weeks ago.

also I have this album in my friendster that has the pictures of all of my exs. Its sort of a catalog of all my past exs. I placed it there as a reminder that this people are the ones who either left me, took me for granted or cheated on me. Its just a reminder and album of past memories and experiences, nothing more, nothing less. One thing about me is that I do forgive and let go and move on but I do not forget. I never do. It is because of who and what I am. My past has molded me to who I am now and also keeps me from committing the same mistakes of my past.

Eros is fretting that I am not proud of him. That my ex.s are more important to me because they have more place in my friendster than him. I find that so ridiculous. First of all, I gave all my access to Eros, in my friendster, g4m and whatever online account I have. Secondly I applied to his company so that we can be together. My first week of training was a torture. I was sick, as in really sick but I forced myself to go to work every single day specially in the summit of my fever just to avoid being terminated since I am still a trainee so that I can be with him in the same company. however, he had to go and concern himself with unnecessary things, with ghosts and goblins that does not exist.

While doing this entry we are having an argument. I wont win over someone whose case is out of a "ghost story".

I feel, know and I am sure in my innermost soul that I do love him, that I am proud that he is my partner. I am and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I just dont understand why he cant seem to see or feel that.

his hard headed. I tried to explain everything but its really hard to explain to someone who is resolved on his ideas and presumptions, specially his paranoia.









i AM hurting big time right now. Super!


- Philos

Just an update!

Sorry mejo matagal na kami di nakakapost dito... this has been a very busy week for us.

Grabe, this week has been a great blessing for us. Natuloy ng magwork si "Phi" sa office ko. Parehas pa ng floor ang room niya at table ko. Sabay na kami mag break kahit na-uuna palagi shift nya sa work. At least now we really have time to spend with each other. May sakit siya now and mejo weak siya these past few days kaya tama lang din ng naalagaan ko siya. Mejo stressful na rin work ko compared as to before pero ok lang inspired naman ako magwork kasi kasama ko si "phi" sa kabilang room. Minsan patakas kami nagsmack kami pag walang tao. I so love him. I hope this relationship would continue developing.

:)

We had a light argument the other day. We planned of meeting up the next night (last night). We decided to meet 8:00 PM somewhere in QC. It was an awkward moment for me since I've not fully removed the things we fought about the night before. I was irritable at first. He was hungry at that time so we went to a local fast food chain. We were silent for a long time. I decided to bring to some place else where we can talk. We were able to communicate and patch things up. We ended our date in harmonious and romantic way. On my way home, while listening to my mp3's, i heard this song which made me remember and reflect on what just had happened. Di ko talaga kaya siya kayang tiisin dahil mahal na mahal ko siya. Ganun pala talaga. If you really love each other, you can't stand being mad with your partner.

My ideas about love spans 10 years of memories, experiences, pains, joys, heartaches and realizations.

Now let me point it out here, the notion or idea of love is somewhat a little bit detached from the dynamics of a relationship or a commitment. I will discuss the dynamics of a relationship at a later entry. However some parts of the dynamics of a relationship may be mentioned or briefly discussed here.

For me true love has three parts namely:

feeling, choice and endurance/persistence



Feeling
I don't agree that love can be learned. Well, not in my universe and thinking that is. It is even scientifically proven that a certain amount of attraction is necessary between two people to make something meaningful out of themselves and bond really well and for it to be sustained. That is not to say that people who have strong feelings together are assured of having a lasting commitment. But I do think that it is essential that two people are mutually attracted with each other in many levels. physically, intellectually, sexually and socially. Otherwise, I think if one or both are lacking the feeling of attraction, then they are simply "trying". The relationship may last but I sure think people who are simply trying since they don't have the attraction, will only make the relationship boring and eventually fall apart.

This is not to say also that the attraction or the feeling is necessarily that kind, which is powerful; that sort which have been described as "time literally stopped" or that "I had butterflies in my tummy" and "sleepless night and days without food". Though such feelings may be great, learn that eventually such a powerful feeling or attraction often is not the kind of feeling that one feels towards the person we chose to commit ourselves for the entirety of our lifetime. True love has that subtle feeling. A feeling that is not overwhelming but is there inside you, thumping in your chest and whispering in your mind "his/shes the one". You are attracted to the person even though he/she is not the most beautiful person there is. You are attracted to him/her amidst the fact that he/she doesn't have a model-like looks and physique nor has the brains of a genius. And though you are not "madly in love" with the person, he is someone you just cant stop thinking about. Not necessarily all the time, but most of the time, specially in certain instances in which, he or she will just pop out in your head and will give you a small smile.





Choice
True love is not a matter of simply feeling or being in love, nor is it driven by emotion. True love proceeds from a conscious decision making. Strong feelings and attractions eventually fade away. Some feelings even come and go; one moment you feel attracted and in love with your partner and in other times you feel repulsed by him/her. This is the primary reason why a commitment or a serious relationship should not be driven by mere emotions, feelings or attraction and worst it should not be driven by sex. Having to choose someone is not simply being moved because of good looks or being driven due to an overwhelmingly satisfying sex nor is it due to a great intellectual fascination. A conscious choice to love someone is a meeting of the heart and the mind, and that after some deliberation, one sees that there is something more than just looks, sex or a genius why you choose to love and commit one's self to someone.

Before the conscious choice or decision to get committed to someone or even in just about anything, analysis is first made. One considers the pros and cons of the options to take. True love and a lasting relationship comes from the choice of being with someone, amidst that person's imperfections, weakness, negative traits and lacks. True love is a choice or driving desire to be with someone who is not overwhelmingly physically attractive nor sexually satisfying all the time and yet you still wish to be with the person.

In the initials of a relationship, having barely any experience and knowledge of who and what the other person is and you still decide to tie the knot with the person, not simply of several reasons or the shallow knowledge of the personality and behavior of the other but more so because true the commitment you are going to make with that person, you want to discover further the other person; you want to find and discover more reasons to be with him/her.

A conscious choice to be with someone is the matured way of starting a commitment with. A conscious choice is actually the matured way of handling many areas and situations of one's life.



Endurance/Persistence
True love persist and endures amidst obstacles, problems, trials and tragedies. Again a relationship will not endure if it did not come from a conscious decision in the beginning. It will easily breakdown in the face of adversity. A relationship who has been consciously made but initially lacked the feeling, may it stand for years, will eventually be shattered from within.

Endurance is that hopeful and courageous spirit that does not give up and fights a good fight. This is not to say that such is the way of the hopeful fool who by every turn is already defeated, broken and has no other option left, remains defiant and wants to continue with a commitment that is no longer in existence. One has to be discerning of when to fight for it, and when to give up and just let go. Remember a relationship is a commitment of two people combined. When one of the persons pulls out and breaches the contract and is totally resolves in that choice to fall out of the relationship then its already futile to keep anything. Besides a romantic relationship is the interaction and dynamic of two people in constant agreement to be with each other.

I want to also point out endurance and persistence with forgiveness. Forgiveness is one of the great faculties of love. The capacity to forgive someone who betrayed you is a great act of love and only through constant forgiveness can a relationship endure. Of course the people involve in the relationship are prone to mistakes, weaknesses and fall-outs and if one or both doesn't have that kind of understanding and forgiving heart, then the relationship is prone to shatter at the slightest instance of a mistake. Perfectionists and idealists towards their partners are people who do not deserve to be in a relationship as they are prone to just hurt themselves and hurt others.

Love is not simply about romance, steamy and passionate sex, dinners, flowers or cuddling and kissing. True love is determined by time and the obstacles surpassed. Often the greatest obstacle or trial that couples face is the problem of infidelity. when one or both has committed an act of infidelity. It is either a one night stand or an affair with an outside person. To this will I discuss my of HUMAN AGAPE




AGAPE
or a profound feeling of love that is beyond romantic love is the kind of love that has been tested both by time and by so many trials. It is the love that endures amidst pain. It is the love of Christ. It is the love that has mirrored the love of God.

Agape is possible to be experience by lovers when they have outlasted many years and problems specially the problem of infidelity. That amidst everything one or both of them persists in loving each other with a forgiving and accepting heart and mind. Usually such a relationship evolves into a spiritual experience of God's love. The relationship of the two people who has endured tends to be a spiritual relationship that begins to have a profound meaning that transcends eroticism and basic human behavior or traits.

When such endurance and level has been attained, it is the moment of each others lives that both look at each other as Christ (or as God) and each other would love and serve each other as if one is loving and caring for God. I am not referring to Idolatry or fanaticism similar to pop star fans or to fanatical members of a religious sect. I am referring to the kind of love that Christ mentioned, "love one another as I have loved you". It is such a profound relationship if two people would love each other in a way that Jesus Christ loved humanity. Christ love is not a blind love if that's what you are thinking. True love will persist and endure. IT will sacrifice even to the most dreadful tortures or most painful paths but it is not a stupid love. Love remains as a social contract, a dynamic or interaction of two people. Therefore, its not love to allow yourself to be abused by an unloving partner simply because you cannot live without your partner.

Yes Christ died for he loved humanity, however his death for the forgiveness of sins is not without conditions. Yes, God will forgive and accept a sinner, he even died to save sinners, but he will only accept and forgive someone who sincerely asks for forgiveness, repents, accepts God's act of love and resolves to change his ways to be a better person. That is the same as with Human love and with the experience of Agape. two lovers will endure if the element of forgiveness and sacrifice is in the relationship and if both are resolved to keep the covenant they made with each other. They will last if upon a certain time, one of them sins and the other forgives and accepts while the one who sinned does everything in his/her power to repent and reform.



SUMMERY

IN summery, true love is a dynamic relationship made from attraction(feelings), conscious and responsible choices and endurance of two people who will be tested by time and circumstance, from which both grows and evolves, eventually attaining the kind of love that is profoundly divine and spiritually compassionate.