Eros here. Grabe, matagal na pala ako di nagsusulat. Mejo busy sa work e. Araw araw ba namang 10-12 hours magkakasunod trabaho ko. Tapos malayong malayo pa workplace ko sa haus. Around 2 hrs ang commute ko. 2nd monthsary nga pala namin ni Phi nung May 15, 2009. Di man lang namin napansin till naghiwalay kami galing date namin when he texted. Hectic na magstos ang weekend namin last week grabe. From my 10-hr work, we went to stay for the morning at his place somwhere on Antipolo - sa rural area tlaga. Grabe. Naawa ako sa kanya kasi dun ko lang narealize gaano ka layo ang byahe. Sabi ko nga pagdating namin duon e matulog lang kami kasi sobrang pagod kaming 2. Pero makulit si Phi- so we had our afternoon delight. It was one of the hot delights na di ko makakalimutan kasi bukod sa hot and sweaty kami e literal na mainit talaga. Nung early evening from Antipolo eh lumuwas naman kami to Trinoma to meet up with my barkada's because I wanted to plan my birthday party with them and introduce my Phi to them since its the best time - free kami lahat. Ok naman ending. Napagastos pa ko ng konti ng sang round ng beer at ang couple pa naming friends kasi sa cheers ng -"wagas na pag-ibig" na nagresulta sa dagdag pang pulutan. Tapos, nun mejo lasing na kami at pumunta na kami ni Phi sa weekend rest hotel namen to literal at totoong rest na. Pag gising namin 12 noon kinabukasan, niyaya ko naman si Phi na maglibot sa buong Antipolo para mag-occular ng mga resort na pwedeng pagstayan namin for my bday. Nag ikot kami sa kasagsagan ng init ng araw, kaya 2 lang ang napuntahan namin na its-a-tie lang ang labanan. Ang Loreland and Bosay. Di ko pa alam where pero ok lang dahil opt ko rin sa house naman if ever di makakaya sa lugar na yun. Pagdating namin sa bayan ng antipolo ni phi ay may nakita kaming spa. Nag aya agad si phi magpahilot kasi yun talaga ang gingawa nya before. First time ko sa ganung spa (clean type) and sobrang revitalized and relieved naman ako sa experience. Matapos nun, ayaw pa namin maghiwalay, pero napansin nyo naman, gano ka stressful yung 2 araw na yun. Pero ok lang. Infact I enjoyed every moment of it. Narealize kong kailangan na naming mag live in ni Phi somewhere in Pasig para malapit sa workplace namin. Hay. Stress talaga. Pero buti nalang, andyan palagi si Phi. I really love my Phi.
Actually wala ako maisip na ipost talaga na specific
Bumili na rin kami ng ring namin. yung ring ko ay may engraving ng name nya and vice versa. Super tagal namin namili. hay. Pero okay naman na. We are both happy with the look of it. Yung picture above is the closest resemblance ng ring namin na nahanap ko sa net
As they say nasa honeymoon stage pa kami kaya naman pasweet pa kami sa isat isa. I don't mind kissing him infront of everyone sa office whenever darating sya. Mas una kasi shift ko kesa sa kanya. Hindi ako nahihiyang yakapin at akbayan sya sa office or even outside ng office.
Binalik na sila sa dati nilang pwesto. Hindi na kami magkatalikuran ni Eros. Hay. Namimiss ko tuloy sya. Minsan when I am not doing anything I would just surprice him with a kiss sa chick. Hehehe
Lately ako naman ang napapranoid at naiinsecure. I dont know whats wrong with me pero sobrang natatakot ako sa future na baka biglang magsawa sa akin si Eros at may dumating na someone better at ipagpalit nya ako dun. Hindi naman kasi ako overwhelmingly gwapo and family ko ay umaasa din sa akin so almost half of my finances ay napupunta din sa family ko. So I feel as if wala akong mabigay o maooffer kay EROS na kung saan talagang never nya maiisip na iwan ako. I feel as if any time pwede nya ako itapon na lang since I have nothing exceptional to give. Minsan naiiyak ako in bed for getting hurt of something that has not yet happened. Ewan ko ba. I will try not to think about it anymore. and Just think of my good qualities na hindi makikita ni EROS sa iba, at alam ko na isa sa mga yun na talagang mahirap makita ay UNWAVERING FIDELITY and EMOTIONAL/INTELLECTUAL MATURITY. Such things are very rare sa same-sex relationships. Super rare. I hope that is my edge above others na super gwapo, sexy at mayaman.
I hope everything will really turn out well for the two of us in all areas, families namin, work, relationship namin and friends.
LOVE YOU EROS!
The article below was taken from a someone else's blog. I just found the article very nice, informative and inspirational that I wanted to post it in our blog. I am not stealing intellectually. I stated clearly this article is not my article.
LIFE AND LOVE EXPLAINED
Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with...
In life, initially, you will meet the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves YOU most. When you experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn't love you.
The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
Which person are you in other people's life?
No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore.
When he loves you, he cant pretend that he doesn't.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.
When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him, and if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?
LOVE IS NOT POSSESSIVE.
If you like the moon, you cant just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you may use another method of possessing the person.
Let him become a permanent memory in your life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points, and the bad. You can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can't change to become what you like him to be, you don't love him anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him.
You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad, you will wish to have this person to be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.
Being away form each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate. When two people are in love, they love to ask each other to swear, to make promises... Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover.
These swear and promises are useless:
"Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!"
We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry. Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?
Be careful when making promises; don't make promises that you cannot keep. Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching?
In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying doesn't believe; the one listening also doesn't believe.
"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have..."
Taken from:
http://carlorock.multiply.com/journal?&page_start=20
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