VIA CRUSIS

0 comments Posted by ciluvcj143 at 8:21 PM

A Film i was part of back in college. I was the writer and director of the film.


part 1




part 2

grief

0 comments Posted by ciluvcj143 at 2:35 PM





Its almost 1 year

0 comments Posted by ciluvcj143 at 2:18 PM

"The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye."

It has been almost a year since Eros and I decided to settle down and we are in the most difficult stage of our relationship.

Mahirap, masakit and mabigat ang sitwasyun namin because of what happened since Mid January up to now. Actually I think it all started back in December.

Ilang beses na rin ako nakipagbreak sa kanya but eventualy, konting yakap at konting sorry lang nya sa akin bumibigay na ako kagad, hoping that his "sorry" will translate to actual and effectual change, which is sincere and true; to my disapointment of course. Pero kahit gaano kahirap at kasakit, eto pa rin ako, still holding on.

Alam ko, yung passion and love nya sa akin ay halos wala na. Reading back at the previous blog entries here, I can feel and see that he was so inlove with me the first 6 to 8 months of our relationship. However, that is no longer the case. He has grown cold, unaffectionate, distant, stone and irritable even when it was all his fault.

Of course there are things I cannot dicuss here. But if only people knew exactly what happened, pwede na ako icanonize bilang martyr. But ayus lang, mahal ko sya.

ITS TRUE THE HARDEST PART OF LOVING SOMEONE IS KNOWING WHEN TO LET GO AND WHEN TO SAY GOODBYE... ITS THE HARDEST PART BECAUSE your heart and soul doesnt want to let go.

I just hope and pray that we survive this.

Im speaking from the depths of my soul when I say I love him so much, with every fiber of my being, with every bloog in my veins, with every tears in my eyes and with whatever spirit left in my soul. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND THERES NO ONE ELSE I WANT TO BE WITH IN LIFE BUT HIM.

Truly I miss him. I miss the old him. I would rather have back the old Eros who is seloso, paranoid, over protective and gusto nya magkasama kami oras oras kesa yung Eros that he has become; that he transformed into.

I truly miss him... i miss him very much...

Hindi ko na alam what more I can say and do to express what I am currently feeling.

May God guide and bless us both. It will take a miracle, God's loving hands to save our relationship, OUR COMMITMENT.

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